Do You Ever Want to Go Back?
At the risk of making this blog look like a One Tree Hill fan blog, here’s another feel-good snapshot from Season 5, Episode 15 entitled Life is Short.
I can name two people who loved (will love) this scene. Three, if you count me. It’s nice to see Brooke and Lucas in a different level of friendship now, considering the failure of their on-screen and real-life love story. (Hmm, could it still be..?) Even more so, it’s nice to see how much these characters have grown, and how their lives have changed in a way that’s so familiar you can almost feel their pain, and struggles, and joy, even from the other side of the TV screen.
Lucas, Brooke, and Little Angie
Brooke: Do you ever want to go back? I remember being sixteen, and everything just seemed much easier. Would you do it differently?
Lucas: I’d try to appreciate the things I took for granted. But I think we have to go through all these stuff you know, to get to the places we want to be.
“Sometimes when you’re young, you think nothing can hurt you.. it’s like being invincible. Your whole life is ahead of you, you have your big plans — to find your perfect match, the one that completes you. But as you get older, you realize that it’s not always that easy.” Well, there goes Lucas Scott’s VO for you.
It reminded me of that open letter I blogged more than a year ago. (How bitter can my bachelorette life be! Heh!) Don’t get me wrong, I’m turning quarter-of-a-hundred in a few weeks, and I actually love how this life is turning out to be, complexities and all.
But it’s really just easier to WANT to grow up until you come to a point where everything just flies by too fast, and bills start piling up, and responsibilities start getting bigger and bigger. Suddenly, you hear your younger self lobbying inside you, complaining about still being too young to handle too much grown-up stuff. Missing what used to be, and wishing you’re back to that time when life is simpler, are just some of the things you expect to happen frequently as you grow older.
A while ago, we finished packing up our 7-month worth of mess. Tomorrow In a few hours, Ivy and I will be moving to a new apartment, and I’ll be saying buhbye to Aster after two melodramatic years together in the lalaland of Ortigas. (I’m gonna miss her terribly. *sniff*)
I’m starting to master the art of moving from one place of residence to another already. This is the fourth, in a span of about 2 years, and I’m hoping this move will be the last for me. Hopefully, the next one will involve packing up 20+ years worth of mess, and moving to a place big enough to build a family in.
Err. Okay, that may be a little too advanced to think about at this point but whatdahek. Grown-up stuff, you know.
isn’t it that sometimes people only wish to be some place else because they’re afraid to go back? maybe moving forward doesn’t mean you can’t go back. I mean, starting over is different from starting something else right? And yet both can mean moving forward. Some people say ‘moving on’ when they’re actually just ‘giving up.’ It’s harder to look back and start over because you already know what to expect, and you know that trying to change some things to make it better is just the same as starting something new. Going back doesn’t mean that you regret something right? Maybe you just have to. Maybe sometimes revisiting the past and doing some things over are written plans for one’s future. Maybe it was planned that way for you. After all, there’s always a Master plan right? Our thinking is linear, that’s why going back would imply that we have an unfinished business, but then again maybe in some cases the ‘past’ isn’t past just yet, ergo, ‘going back’ is ‘moving forward.’ :)
hhhmmm… @guitarchic: this post reminds me of two (2) movies [Tom Hanks’ movie entitled Big (1988) and Jennifer Garner’s movie 13 going on 30 (2004)] and an E-heads song from the Cutterpillow album entitled “Walang Nagbago”. :D
@sonseeker: well, yeah. things/instances have their ‘mystical’ way of going full blown on our faces again when it is not yet confronted or faced or solved or accomplished completely I guess. I follow you with the master plan. I’ve read it over Coelho’s book and he labeled it ‘Maktub’ which translates everything is written.
Sometimes there are challenges in life that you feel like wanting to be overwhelmed by it. Be swallowed by its tides and waves. A complete surrender. Dive into the abyss of the unknown. You could either call it giving up or plain acceptance.
Having mistakes/regrets is part of life, however cliche it sounds. But taking the line of Achilles (Brad Pitt) in the movie Troy — “I’ll tell you a secret. Something they don’t teach you in your temple. The Gods envy us. They envy us because we’re mortal, because any moment might be our last. Everything is more beautiful because we’re doomed. You will never be lovelier than you are now. We will never be here again.”
Mistakes, regrets, the past, or whatever you wish to call it are the things that make you up as a person. These are the ingredients of character. :D
wow, the wisdom of hollywood. really wise huh. peace man.
hmmm.. I remember when I was sixteen I was trying my best to look good for this girl i know. I was terrible then with all the embarrassing things I did. And yet, I miss it. Alot of things I did take for granted, and I if ever I can go back, I’ll make sure to make things A LOT better.
Hay, sixteen.. 8 years ago. Where am I now? I am grateful. Right now, as if I was given a second chance. :)
I just hope I won’t screw it this time around.
Cutie pie, OTH addict.
Love you.
Hey; does anybody know the guitar solo that played after Lucas told Brooke to stay. It came on a few other episodes but this is the most recent. I can’t find the name. Please help!