I Want to Fly, Literally and Figuratively
There’s always something to remind me of those dreams — of flying out of this country and starting my career off from scratch in a place where I can be anyone I want to be because no one knows me.
There’s the KC Concepcion documentary about her life in Paris. Or Ala Parades‘ chronicles on their new life in the land of the Oz. Or this girl (let’s leave her anonymous hehe) whose blog I always lurk on, who went to England to take graduate studies, and eventually work. Or movies like Devil Wears Prada (okay, I just had to say that one). And the constant talk among friends about Sydney, Singapore, and New York. My heart beats doubletime every time I think of flying away, anxious because I feel like there’s something I have to do to pursue those dreams and I’m not doing anything about it because I’m too scared.
I turn 25 this year, and the constant desire for a change in environment, for an adventure, for something new, is just something I couldn’t deny even to myself. Sometimes I wonder if I just need a break, but I feel that I need more than just that. Don’t get me wrong, I love my job. I love what I do. And God knows how thankful I am to be where I am at this point in my life.
It’s just that lately, my prayers involve a lot of, “please make me desire going out of this country less if this is not Your will for me” or “please make me bloom, regardless if I stay in this country or not.” You get what I’m saying?
Oh whoosh. I’m monologuing again. :) I guess all I’m trying to say is..
Watch me fly. Soon. Literally or figuratively, we’ll see. :)
“Don’t get me wrong, I love my job. I love what I do. And God knows how thankful I am to be where I am at this point in my life.” P.S. and yeah I love my boyprend too. hehehe. Hang in there Riz, God’s plans for us is more than what we can hope or imagine, but for now, all we can do is to be faithful to where (literally or figuratively) He called us to be :D
LOL. Aye on that P.S.! Haha. :)
Awww, I feel the same way. Sama ko!! hehehe!
Taraaa! :)
gusto ko ring mag fly fly sa iba’t ibang lugar (lalo na sa europa!). kaya lang di naman ako rich :(
btw, sabi ko na nga ba! ikaw yung nagdesign nung valitang vakla na naman template ko! sobrang proud ako, ikaw nagdesign nun! galing!! :) la lang maraming salamat! :D
Huy! shhh ka nga jan.. baka may maka alam… baka sa iba pa malipad yan. lol.. lipad tayo.
Yan na nga ba ung sinasabi ko e.. booo.
you’ll get there soon enough so long as you put your heart & soul into it. Find out what you want to do in life, for life, then loose yourself into it. You’ll see.
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