In Memory of Chichi
A few days ago, I was just telling him that I couldn’t imagine how I was going to feel when my hamsters die. I didn’t realize I’d be blogging about this, this soon.
Today, when I got home, I found Chichi dead. :( Immediately, tears started falling from my eyes. I went away, called Mom and asked her if she could check on her to make sure — I didn’t have the courage to hold her cold and dead body. :( Mom said Chichi didn’t have any wounds, nor was there any trace that she was attacked. She just.. died.
As Mom took her out of the cage, I sat on the couch, holding the other hamster, Chuchu, on one hand, texting Jayvee with the other hand to tell him the news (we always shared this love for our pets), and silently wiping my tears away.
I think, though, that I am quite an improvement now compared with my hysterics when Chuchu was attacked by a giant house rat. I have this certain emotional attachment to my pets, one I can’t describe with words. But I guess I’m beginning to learn that while it’s okay to cry, crying does not change the situation, it’s merely a way of releasing what’s inside so that you have more room to breathe, and more space to fill with strength so that you can face the music gracefully and move on.
I’m sad. But I know this, too, shall pass.
Marcvill said,
June 18, 2007 @ 12:46 am
Wendy and Chichi are now together in hamster paradise. It feels terrible, I know! Arriving home one day learning that your pet is no longer breathing. So when are you going to get a new hamster?
Know what, I really really wanted to buy a pet turtle but my superstitious wife would not allow me.
Joni said,
June 18, 2007 @ 6:58 am
Waaah. Baket?? There must be a reason. Baka nabasa yung buntot nya? :(
normi said,
June 18, 2007 @ 7:58 am
oh noooooooo… ba’t ganon, biglaan. :(
riz said,
June 18, 2007 @ 8:01 am
Nabasa buntot? Ha?
riz said,
June 18, 2007 @ 8:03 am
Waah Ate Normi :( Wala na si Chichiii :(
riz said,
June 18, 2007 @ 8:06 am
Is it okay to buy a girl hamster again? I mean, hindi ba sila mag aaway? Parang wala akong nakikitang hamster na 4 months old. Ok lang bang i-pair up ulit yung male hamster with a younger hamster? Grr :(
Pet turtle? I think that’s cute! My ninong, who is a pastor, have about three little turtles in their house. So far, hindi naman sila minamalas haha.
Jake The Miserable said,
June 18, 2007 @ 8:39 am
Sadyang nakalulungkot na bigla tayong nilipasan nang ganu’ng kabigla.
Taos-puso kong ipagpapanalangin ang mga paglalakbay ng iyong minamahal na kaibigang Chichi sa mga susunod pang araw sa kanyang buhay sa kabila. Hindi namin siya malilimutan.
“…it’s merely a way of releasing what’s inside so that you have more room to breathe, and more space to fill with strength…” Strikingly true.
Joni said,
June 18, 2007 @ 12:15 pm
Di pwedeng mabasa buntot ng hammies eh. it could lead to their death. :(
riz said,
June 18, 2007 @ 1:25 pm
Talaga??! I didnt know!
jozzua said,
June 18, 2007 @ 4:41 pm
A friend used to love pets a lot. When one she loved very much passed away, she decided she didn’t want any more. Too much hurt.
I was actually pretty upset myself when my fighting fish disappeared from the office one day. I never really discovered what happened to him.
Karlo.PinoyBlogero said,
June 18, 2007 @ 8:16 pm
I used to have a pet once. Dog sya, Kobe name. Iba talga ang dating pag pet ang nawala. Mas lalo na pag pet dog. He died about a month ago and up until now namimiss ko sya.
I hope maovercome mo yan ^_^
riz said,
June 18, 2007 @ 9:03 pm
Funny, the moving on part applies to pets too. Hehe. Thanks Jake. :)
riz said,
June 18, 2007 @ 9:08 pm
I know how it feels. I guess it’s for that same reason that I stopped having a pet for a while. Now nalang ulit.
That’s sad what happened to your fish :( They’re all bound to die naman eh, we just have to enjoy them while it lasts.
riz said,
June 18, 2007 @ 9:10 pm
Aww that’s sad :( I feel for your dog :(
Hay. Some people think it’s weird crying over stuff like this, hehe. I’m glad im not alone. :)
THanks Karlo.
BTW, I saw your request for an interview. Just wait for the questions. Will work on it ASAP ;)
normi said,
June 19, 2007 @ 12:08 pm
we’ll say a silent prayer for her. pinagtayo ko siya ng kandila sa apartment. hay chichi, i hope you’re happy now in hamster heaven…
sheils said,
November 7, 2007 @ 5:18 pm
*tear*
HUG
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Macnerdzcare said,
December 10, 2007 @ 7:57 pm
when my cat died, it felt like i lost a relative.. sobra din emotional attachement ko sa mga epts
Maje said,
December 11, 2007 @ 11:12 am
aww..just finished cryin. err. I never thought I’d cry again..i miss my hamsters. Mocha died Last Sept 25…he had the same symptoms like your friend Shiela’s Utoy. The younger one, Ccino died just last month. They were both more than two years old already…so I guess it was really their time. :c
cassie said,
December 12, 2007 @ 2:40 am
aww. im stilll crying,
my childminder came round and said, Wheres the hamster?
I looked in the cage and saw my hamster nibbles streched out, dead. I called my dad and said ” NIBBLES IS DEAD!”
My hamster was so tame, it never bit me or anyone ever.
Im so depressed.
please email me on mars.evans@yahoo.com
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