I just realized what makes me bitter–most of them I refused to admit to anyone (and to myself) before:

Monotony–being (helplessly) stuck in the middle of it, without any road signs to at least give a clue of what’s gona happen next. Facades–people judging you because of how you look and not because of what you’re worth (can you not hear the Little Prince’s little voice echoing? What’s essential is invisible to the eye). Unfair judgments–having given your best into something, but instead of getting a sense of fulfillment, criticisms and unappreciation gets back at you.

Monotony. Facades. Unfair judgments.

There was once a point in my life when these things were my motivations–my driving force to BE more, to DO more, and to PROVE to the world that there’s someone behind this shell who’s got potentials to be great, if only they would look closer. But now, it’s like I’m losing myself to the very things I hate. Like I’m watching myself succumb to these evils, and I’m too tired to fight them head on.

YM Status : Burn out (on a Tuesday, and at the age of 23) — is that normal?

Edit. First thing the next day, I took a friend’s advice and took stress tabs. Let’s see if this works.